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Fear is a Hunter

I just finished reading an ARC of Ruta Sepetys's new novel Salt to the Sea.  It is the story of WWII refugees aboard the Wilhelm Gustloff . The story is told in four voices, with the first four chapters introducing each of the four characters. Sepetys begins these four chapters with "_____ is a hunter." Each character is given an emotion: Guilt is a hunter. Fate is a hunter. Shame is a hunter.  And finally, the last character: Fear is a hunter.   I'm not doing justice to this wonderful and heartbreaking story, but I'm stuck right now on Fear is a hunter. The emotion of fear is assigned to the despised character. I don't want to be like the despised character. And yet, I'm fearful. The fear of my inadequacies drives me to all kinds of activities other than what I should be doing (writing), what I want to be doing (writing). So I turn around and face the hunter. I'm not perfect, I say. I'm not invincible, I say. You can't hurt me, I say...

What's on my...

...september... ...Agenda: Septemberfest (in which I annually face my fear of heights and climb the rock wall), Country Fair (snapping photos of the gingerbread boys participating in the blueberry pie eating contest, the sack race, and the tractor pull), end of our CSA  (good-bye my weekly five pounds of tomatoes), picking and canning peaches, and the third annual Quirk and Quill writers' retreat ...Nightstand:  An odd assortment.  Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain; Doll Bones; The True-Blue Scouts of Sugar Man Swamp; The Suitors of Yvonne; Very Good, Jeeves; I Am the Cheese ...Stovetop:  Apple sauce and apple butter. Quarts and quarts of it. ...Catalog of Fears:  Dying chickens, spiders, saying the wrong thing, missed flights ...Desk:  Novel #3, CATHEDRAL. Revisions, revisions, revisions. ...Mind:  Memory loss, brain connectivity, creativity, winterizing the chicken coop I look forward to September with all the energy a mother wit...